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So I just started my ED back up. Yesterday my boyfriend stayed over. 
Everyday I count how much calories I ate that day. I was doing to last night and I had to ask him what size the pear I was eating was. So I could get the calorie count on it.  He asked me why I was asking all these questions and that I better not become unhealthy and too skinny. I told him that I was fat and he got mad. He dosen't understand that I refuse to gain weight. He said he wouldn't break up with me if  my weight was 150 pounds but if my weight was 110 lbs he would dump me. Said he couldn't be with someone who is unhealthy. I dont understand being 150 lbs is WAY unhealthy. i just want to be 105 lbs. thats all. I dont think he will notice if I was 110 pounds so I think I will be fine. just disapointing is all.

Current Location:	home
Current Mood:	confused

ten things about me.
1) i dont eat.
2) i am not skinny
3) i hate school
4) i like my friends
5) im scared of intimacy
6) i have major A.D.D
7) i act like a kid
8) i rather sleep
9) i have insomnia
10) i have a boyfriend



 
- my idol

Current Mood:

disappointed